Facing the consequences of a DUI

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  • By an Airman
  • 30th Space Communications Squadron
As Airmen in the world's greatest Air Force, we are expected to set and maintain the highest standards, whether it be in uniform or out of it. I failed those standards. I not only failed, but I endangered the lives of everyone on base and in the surrounding community by deciding to operate a vehicle under the influence of alcohol. Being someone who normally was a responsible drinker, I realized it doesn't take but one time to ruin lives. Although I did not hurt anybody physically, I scarred the Air Force's reputation and let down those around me. 

I had a plan. The plan was to stay at a friend's house, but I drank way too much too quick. I lost all rationale and made a poor decision. While everyone was asleep I awoke, then carelessly got behind the wheel of my vehicle and drove to the base. I do not remember the drive nor the mindset while driving, and to this day I am still unaware of the events that transpired that evening. What I do remember is sitting at the gate and having the security guard ask me to park my car and wait for a moment. Once security forces arrived, they started performing field sobriety tests, which I undoubtedly failed. I was arrested, brought to the 30th Security Forces Squadron, and at that time they performed the breathalizer test to which I blew a .17 BAC. 

Although this was an infamous night in my life, nothing surpasses the following day, standing in front of those I respect, admire and credit to helping me become the Airman I am. I pray that no one has to endure what I experienced that day. I felt so insignificant, so ashamed, and I could see the disappointment in all their eyes. It peirced through everything I am, and struck me in my heart, where it still resides today. 

I warn all of you. Just because you are a responsible drinker, it does not mean you aren't capable of making an irresponsible decision. Lock those keys up! As soon as someone picks up a drink take their keys, not to just prevent them from experiencing what I have, but for the innocent lives on the road. We have all heard those nightmare stories from the countless breifings we receive. Please do not help create one.